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closely together were now heated and welded by the wonderful incoming of the Holy Spirit to their hearts.

Clara obtained such a clear and definite witness to her entire sanctification that she never doubted it. None who ever knew her will say they ever heard her directly or indirectly intimate a doubt about this experience so wonderfully obtained at this time. She had never been much taken up with fashionable dress, though she had quite a love for artistic finery, but under this new light she clearly saw that God's Word required plainness of attire, and her heart gladly responded to this teaching. Ever after this she wore her clothing strictly plain, but as neat and becoming as it was plain. At about this same time she was baptized by Mr. Harmon and was received as a full member of the Free Methodist church. Her love for and loyalty to that church continued until her death.

Let it not be supposed, however, that this experience was easily attained, for it really cost her many a struggle, as under the light of the Spirit she realized the deep depravity of her heart in the sight of God. Many years after this when she had gone to China and had passed through the Boxer riots, she writes about it as follows:

"It meant more to me, took more of a martyr's spirit, required more courage, more self-denial and sacrifice to come out and take the position as a seeker after holiness as I did twelve years ago when I wanted God to cleanse my heart from pride and to fill me with His Holy Spirit, than it did to come to China."

At the same time her spiritual nature was so wonderfully quickened, strengthened and enlarged, she began to realize the definite leadings of the Holy Spirit towards her physical healing. She had for a long time thought about this, and she and her sister had at times prayed for it; but it now seemed to them that their previous prayers for this healing had been largely mixed with selfishness and with desires for the happiness of health, rather than from an intense desire for the service that might be given to God should the prayers be answered. In this connection she writes about it as follows:

"Frail from infancy, at fifteen years of age I had so little vitality with which to combat disease that an attack of the measles left me an invalid. Neither my sister nor I at this time enjoyed a definite witness of the Spirit to our salvation, yet we had some faith in God. Once when my sister was praying to God for my healing, the question came clearly to her from the Holy Spirit, 'Why do you ask this?" and the motives why she desired me to live were held up before her by the Spirit in such a way that she clearly saw that self, or creature love, was at the bottom of it. She saw then and there vividly that such prayers not only lacked power to prevail with God, but were actually displeasing to Him. It was also shown to her at that time that she must ask for this boon only for God's glory if she would prevail in prayer. She then specially consecrated herself and me to God in prayer. I mention this because I consider it the first prayer of faith offered for my healing."

“That life is good, whose tidal flow
The motion of Thy will obeys;
And death is good, that makes us know
The love divine that all things sways.

“And good it is to bear the cross,

And so Thy perfect peace to win;

And naught is ill, nor brings us loss,
Nor works us harm, save only sin."

們權探免我上的的我太

柄救了們我旨名們福
榮我人免們意為在音
全們的了日行聖。天
是脫債我用在願上
你離不們的地你的
的完呌的飲上的父。
世惡我債食如目顾
世因們如今同降人
無為遇同日行臨都
窮國見我賜在願尊
阿度試們給天你你

THE LORD'S PRAYER

第六章第

三節

CHAPTER IV.

HER HEALING.

"At length this great Physician
(How matchless is His grace)
Accepted my petition

And undertook my case;

First gave me sight to view Him
(For sin my eyes had sealed)
Then bade me look unto Him.

I looked and I was healed."

The faith that was springing up in Miss Leffing. well's heart for healing did not, however, come to maturity at once. This restoration to health actually seemed to come in instalments as her faith grew and increased. In one of her letters she speaks about this as follows: "I began to look to the Lord for my healing; and though my faith might have been in size as a mustard seed, it also was like it in that it contained a germ of life; and He who would not quench the smoking flax nor break a bruised reed, inclined His ear to my cry and caused my faith to grow and increase."

She describes her condition then and her deliver ance from this particular phase of her trouble as follows: "Even the little noises about the house hurt my head intensely, though every one tried to keep very quiet. The pains that would follow would

so exhaust me that I would lose in a few moments what I had been weeks in gaining. I would fre quently lie awake all night because of some little thing happening in the evening. I remember dread

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ing to have an absent sister come to see me because I was sure I would lie awake all night thinking about her. At this time, as I began to look to God for deliverance, I remember wanting God to plan out my whole life for me, and I knelt and prayed this simple prayer:

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